Taking a Chance!

My dear friends, I am going to exclaim my love to Orsino!

I am so nervous and afraid to see what will happen after I tell him who I really am, and how I feel about him. There are so many things that could happen: he could tell me that he loves me as well, completely reject me, leaving me depressed and full of melancholy , or he could take time to think about the strange news he is hearing. If I were him I would be completely lost and oblivious to what has happened. If Orsino does not love me, what shall I do? I will end up a lonely homeless woman without a man to care for her. I do not want to imagine myself without him! Although if he loves me too, I will be the most upbeat and joyful woman in all of Illyria. My prayers and dreams would be granted if Orsino did love me. All of my work would have been so worth the wait for his love. My heart just fills with bliss just thinking about our future together. Not to mention the jealousy of all women around the nation. I would also completely understand if he needed to take time to think about his decision, hopefully it would be a good choice. Not to be conceited, but how could he not love me? Well, wish me all the luck! I will be arriving at his court shortly.

Split Personalities

I do not know how much longer I can go without speaking to Orsino about who I really am. I am lost in a strange land and I need someone by my side. Do I really have anything to lose by talking to him? Another thing I could possibly do is introduce Viola as herself, and keep Cesario separate. He could fall in love with me, but I don't want to get ahead of myself. All I need is hope and courage that my next actions will pay off. The worst thing that could happen is that I lose my job in Orsino's court. Oh god give me strength to unveil myself to Orsino!

-the heroine

Love Triangle

Diary,

Everyday, my heart breaks a little. My heart breaks because I have lost my brother, and because I am stuck in a situation in which I love a man of power, although he loves another woman, who loves my alter ego, Cesario. I am just in a confusing position, and I am unsure what I should do with myself. My heart wants Orsino, although my mind is telling me to not become stuck in the middle, even though i am. Would Orsino still love me if he discovered that I was a woman, and not a young meek boy? I need to take a risk and uncover my female identity to Orsino, because he may love me more than he will ever love Olivia. My dreams would come true if Orsino and I were finally married, sadly it will take time to win his love.

-the heroine

Dear Diary,

I miss my brother Sebastian so much, I feel lost without him. Sebastian and I have been one since the day we were born, he has never left my side and without him I am a new person. Am I happy being different and separate from my brother? He has watched out for my well being my whole life and now I do not know who I am. As I disguise myself as another person, I feel as though I am losing my identity each day. Cesario is taking over who I am, because most of my days are spent acting like someone of the opposite sex, and who is not even real. I need someone who can give me guidance, someone like my brother. All of my hopes would come true if I could somehow be reunited with my brother once again.

~Sebastian, where are you?

-the heroine.

Hello world,

Today I was sent by Duke Orsino to see his love Olivia, although inside I knew she had strong feelings for me, or Cesario. As I looked deep into her brown eyes, I saw so much passion, it was surreal to me. I cannot believe that she has fallen so much in love with Cesario; it must be his sensitive heart and mind. Sadly as I was talking to her, I realized that I was stuck in a love triangle between the man I desire, and the woman that he desires. I'm unsure which to choose: let down Orsino, or go through with this sickening plan.

~words of wisdom?

- the heroine